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rap legend Jesse Dangerously - Coming Out Wrong

from Subversive Ciphers by Jesse Dangerously & Friends

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lyrics

Lord, have mercy.
Christ, have mercy on us.

When I was nineteen, I wrote a song; a work of fiction. A childish fantasy I hoped could make a person listen. First person narrative, taking on a certain diction to play a role, but also engage in circumscription.
Everyone that heard the lisp since seventh grade dances asked the same question. I never gave 'em straight answers, but I didn't think I liked boys, 'cause boys called me a fag so much it blended into white noise. Somehow they sensed I wasn't measuring up. Turns out they didn't have to ask me what my preference was. Nothing I could say was ever enough to ward them off me; now I got a war that haunts me, like a veteran does.
Okay I guess “it gets better” and stuff - I mean, you learn to conform, crush eccentricities, return to the norm. As sure as you're born, certain forms are forced into the light.
That's when you give them the performance of your life.

You're not different, you're just another victim. You'll never fit in with other children. If you can just hold on a little bit more, you'll get to see the reasons they were hitting us for.

When I was fourteen, I didn't want to be male. Couldn't tell my best friend that little odd detail. Self preservation prevailed, I kept my feelings private. Everyone believed the lie that I presented, even I did.
Never felt I was a girl, I could only wish I was, and feel ashamed about my fat body and homeliness. Ironically, I didn't know that that's how girls are supposed to feel in a culture that doesn't treat them as though they're even close to real!
I didn't know the deal, I was a boy with long hair. I shut the door on that and acted like I'd never gone there. That's privilege. I retreated to a safe distance and stayed hidden - it was easy to not face difference.
I'm fairly positive this is all coming out wrong? I'm not closeted, but this is a coming out song, so if this topic ever gives you trouble, just remember:

You're not the only one who struggles with gender.

You're not different, we're all doing our best to deal. Trying to find our zest or zeal, and dying for our sex appeal. If you can just hold on, believe me - you'll get to see that no-one really finds it all that easy.

Lord, have mercy.
Christ, have mercy on us.

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from Subversive Ciphers, released June 25, 2016
beat by Jesse Dangerously
bass, cello, vibraphone, organ by Peter Project
words by Jesse Dangerously
additional vocals by Tribe One & The Mighty Rhino

recorded by Jacob Earl mostly

based wholesale on an original idea by Tribe One
that original idea is a song called "Different"

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rap legend Jesse Dangerously Ottawa, Ontario

Genuine Independent Rap Legend (GIRL)

member of Backburner crew
half of Danger Grove w Lizard Grove
half of The Library Steps w Ambeez & Illgil
one-third of Imaginary Friends w Thesis Sahib & MC Frank Deluxe
one-third of The Sentinels w ginzuintriplicate & Naked J

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